Below are the 19 most recent journal entries recorded in The Light in the Darkness' LiveJournal:

Tuesday, April 10th, 2007
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2:52 am	I have become fond of this song She eyes me like a pisces when I am weak I've been locked inside your Heart Shaped box four whole weeks I've been drawn into your magnet tar pit trap I wish I could reach your cancer when you turn black Hey! Wait! I've got a new complaint Forever in debt to your priceless advice hey wait I've got a new complaint Forever in debt to your priceless advice Hey! Wait! I've got a new complaint Forever in debt to your priceless advice ...your advice Meat-eating orchids forgive no one just yet Cut myself on Angel Hair and baby's breath Broken hymen of your highness I'm left black Throw down your umbilical noose so I can climb right back Hey! Wait! I've got a new complaint Forever in debt to your priceless advice hey! Wait! I've got a new complaint Forever in debt to your priceless advice Hey! Wait! I've got a new complaint Forever in debt to your priceless advice ...Your advice *solo* She eyes me like a pisces when I am weak I've been locked inside your Heart-Shaped box four whole weeks I've been drawn into your magnet tar pit trap I wish I could reach your cancer when you turn black Hey! Wait! I've got a new complaint Forever in debt to your priceless advice hey! wait! I've got a new complaint Forever in debt to your priceless advice Hey! Wait! I've got a new complaint Forever in debt to your priceless advice Your advice Your advice Your advice Current Mood: cheerful (Comment on this)
Monday, March 12th, 2007
6:35 pm	YO Hey everyone I haven't posted in a long time. So yea I am pretty happy with my life right but I'm also depressed for some reason. A depression that just swooped in and took a hold of me. I hate the feeling of this terrible emotion and I don't want to feel it anymore. Things have been unfolding in my life and I just don't know how to handle everything that is going on. I mean I tried to make things easy for myself but that just came back and kicked me in the ass. I have to try and fight away this emotion before it completely takes me over and I know nobody wants to see me depressed and sad. I LOVE my life to much to give it up by depression. Especially somethings and some people in my life make me feel complete. Seeing the people(or person) always makes me happy and it would be hard to get through life without them. I thank you for being there for me and just thinking about them is already making me feel better. Current Mood: confused Current Music: Sattelite by Guster (Comment on this)
Monday, February 5th, 2007
3:44 pm	I like this song!!! If I wrote you a symphony Just to say how much you mean to me what would you do If I told you you were beautiful Would you page me on the regular tell me would you Well baby I've been around the world But I aint seen myself another girl like you This ring here represents my heart But there is just one thing I need from you saying I do Because, I can see us holding hands walking on the beach our toes in the sand I can see us in the country side sitting in the grass laying side by side You can be my baby Gonna make you my lady Girl you amaze me Ain't gotta do nothin crazy See all I want you to do is be my love My love My love And I know no woman that could take your spot My love My love My love And I know no woman that could take your spot My love My loooooooove Looooooove My loooove My loooove Now If I wrote you a love note And make you smile with every word I wrote what would you do Would that make you wanna change your scene And wanna be the one in my scene tell me would you See what's the point in waiting anymore Cause girl I've never been more sure that baby it's you This ring here represents my heart And everything that you been waiting for Just saying I do Because, I can see us holding hands Walking on the beach our toes in the sand I can see us in the country side Sitting in the grass laying side by side You can be my baby Gonna make you my lady Girl you amaze me Aint gotta do nothin crazy See all I want you to do is be my love My love My love And I know no woman that could take your spot my My love My love My love And I know no woman that could take your spot my My love My looooooove Loooooove My looooove My loooooove [T.I. Raps] Shorty, cool as a fan On the new once again but Still has fans from Peru to Japan Listen baby, I don't wanna ruin your plan But if you got a man, try to lose him if you can Cause your girls real wild throw your hands up high Wanna come kick it wit a stand up guy You don't really wanna let the chance go by Because you ain't been seen wit a man so fly Friend so fly I can go fly Private, cause I handle mine t.i. - Call me candle guy, simply because I am on fire I hate to have to cancel my vacation so you can't deny I'm patient, but I ain't gonna try You don't come, I ain't gonna die Hold up, what you mean, you can't go why Me and you boyfriend we ain't no tie You say you wanna kick it with an ace so high Baby, you decide that I ain't your guy Ain't gon lie ,Me in your space But forget your face, I swear I will Same mark, same bullet anywhere I chill Just bring wit me a pair, I will I can see us holding hands Walking on the beach our toes in the sand I can see us in the country side Sitting in the grass laying side by side You can be my baby Gonna make you my lady Girl you amaze me Aint gotta do nothin crazy See all I want you to do is be my love Love My love Love My love Love And I know no woman that could take your spot My love Love My love Love My love Love And I know no woman that could take your spot My looooooove Loooooove My looooooove My Looooove (Comment on this)
Sunday, February 4th, 2007
1:00 pm	I Miss I don't know what to do anymore. I have tried so hard to hold on to her and all ended up blowing in my face. I just love holding her and falling asleep with her and just being with her all around but for some reason out of no where she decided she doesn't want to do that anymore and I don't know why. I don't know what I did to make her feel like that. To lose feelings for me completely after just one day hurts my heart so much. I still love her and I don't know what to do anymore. I want to show her how I still feel but she doesn't want it and that hurts even more. I mean all of a sudden she came back from church and she didn't want to be with me anymore. I don't get it!!! All I can do is cry and huddle up in a corner for the rest of my life. I feel so empty right now I can't even explain it, I can't even eat anymore. She didn't even give me a chance :cries out loud:. She didn't give me a chance to actually be with her and call her my girlfriend. I does this always happen to me and this was the first time I actually tried to be with a girl. I really loved this girl with all my heart and nothing could have ruined that and nothing still can and it hurts. :cries out loud: I miss her so much. I miss holding her and hugging her and comforting her and kissing her and holding her hand and being with her. I miss her!!! :cries out loud for very long time: Sincerely, The Broken Hearted (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Saturday, February 3rd, 2007
9:21 am	True! True! True! I just thought of something that I think is very true. Inner Beauty is stronger than Outer Beauty. You may see outer beauty first but sometimes if your lucky you see the inner beauty right away and if you do you can see that person in true form. Outer beauty isn't a true person's form, the inner beauty is. The inner beauty is forever permanent and outer beauty will keep on changing. If your only attracted to the outer beauty then you will lose interest but the inner beauty would still be there inside staying the same for someone to see and Love. Inner beauty is the true beauty of a person and it always conquers the outer beauty. I believe the way to see the true inner beauty in someone is to look at their eyes. You will find it if you just stare into the person's eyes. Sincerely, Alex Michael Peter Brzeszkiewicz (Comment on this)
Wednesday, December 27th, 2006
10:39 pm	NO POINT You know what I am at the brink of giving up. There is no point to do anything anymore because it will just lead me into more pain. I get close to someone and in the end the leave me for my own brother. It is bullshit!! We had a great thing and she just wants to get rid of it like that. I mean I really fell hard for this girl and she just decided to shatter my heart. She said she would never hurt me but I guess that was a lie and she said she loved me and I don't think that was true either. The only reason why she wants to be with my brother instead of me is because of age. Age should have nothing to do with who you love and want to be with. My grandparent loved each other and they were ten years apart so don't even tell me you just want to be with someone closer to your age. She doesn't even know my brother but she knows me and she knows I will always love her and I want to hold her and cherish her but my brother will just see her as another girl to go out with. He will never feel the I feel for her. I still have a very small hope that she will see the truth and realize that I am the one and not my brother. Just remember the reasons why you liked me and first talked to me. Remember looking into my hazel eyes and feeling my hand upon your face. Remember how good we both felt when we were together and realize that we have a special thing between us. We love each other and we both don't want to let that go this easily. Just remember what your friend Dave said" Don't ever leave the one you love for the one you like because the one you like will leave you for they love" and don't do that here because it will happen. Then we both will not know how our love truely could have been the real thing. I just don't want to give up the special bond we have between us and I know you don't either Sincerely, Alex Michael Peter Brzeszkiewicz (Comment on this)
Tuesday, December 26th, 2006
2:52 pm	DONE I guess it is over for everything and I don't believe in anything anymore. I will be shaking for the rest of my life thinking what if I didn't screw up. What if last week never happened and we still loved each other. These are the questions I will have to live with for the rest of my life. I hate myself so much for what I did to her. I will never be the same way again and I can't live with that. I feel so empty and I guess I deserve what came to me. A shattered heart and loneliness. I am done with love and all its contents. Thank you for curing me of my ridiculous obsession with love. Goodbye!!! Sincerely Nobody important (Comment on this)
Monday, December 25th, 2006
11:25 pm	Focuz(2) Each day goes by and it gets harder and harder to focuz on things right in front of me. All I can think about is her and her beautiful smile. I haven't seen it in the long time and I understand she needs her time and space right now but it is just hard waking up everyday and knowing I am not going to see or talk to her any time soon. I'm still going to stay string with HOPE and LOVE and let her have her time and wait until she is ready to see me again. LOVE Alex Michael Peter Brzeszkiewicz (Comment on this)
7:23 pm	Christmas Well Christmas was fun I guess. It was good seeing the family and everything. I just wish I got what I wanted for Christmas. I got everything on my list but I truely only wanted one thing this Christmas. I am still strong with hope that I will get it but it isn't up to me right now and I understand that. I have done some terrible things in the past week and I am hoping to get one more chance. I'm not begging or anything because that won't accomplish anything. I will still be filled with LOVE and HOPE through the end. Merry Christmas to everyone I know and LOVE!!! Love Alex Michael Peter Brzeszkiewicz (Comment on this)
Saturday, December 23rd, 2006
10:49 am	Focus I keep focusing on other things but it always comes back to her. I keep seeing her face and her smile in my mind and I just start to shake. I am just trying to stay strong and I am. I just think of her smile and laugh and all I can feel terrified that I won't see such a beautiful sight again but I feel more happy that I can picture her beauty and thinking very strongly that I will see her again. Love Alex Michael Peter Brzeszkiewicz (Comment on this)
Friday, December 22nd, 2006
9:43 pm	Hope All I can really think of is me having to be strong and for me to be patient. For me having hope that things will work out in the end. All I can think is positive thoughts because I have no negative ones. From now on I am going to be the man and not have any doubt and be strong in my mind and heart about the people I truly care about and always will care about and how they feel about me. All I can do is be patient and hope for the best. No more childish ways for me!!! Love Alex Michael Peter Brzeszkiewicz (Comment on this)
Wednesday, December 20th, 2006
12:50 am	GONE! All the bad thoughts I have are gone and I will never think of that again. (Comment on this)
Monday, December 18th, 2006
2:51 pm	I Dont Know I don't it is stuck in my mind. I believe her but the thought is just stuck in there and it won't come out. I mean I know she wouldn't do that to me, but it has just happened so many times in my past. It just like she always asks about him and sending him comments on myspace. I'm not really confused because she says she doesn't so I am going to believe her but I just need to get these thoughts out of my head. (Comment on this)
Sunday, December 17th, 2006
12:36 pm	Great!!! Well two days ago was my birthday and it was fantastic. I think that Christina made it one of the best birthdays a have ever had in my life. She did everything for me, She decorated both my lockers, gave me a card and gave me a flower pen. I LOVE her so much, she does so much for me. She came over and we watched Monty Python and the Sixth Sense. It was great and then we went to Bud's for dinner. Yea it was truely the greatest day of my life. Well that is pretty much what happened and Thank You Christina for everything and I LOVE You so much!!! Love, Your True LOVE Current Mood: Very Happy Current Music: Panic! At the Disco (Comment on this)
Thursday, December 14th, 2006
6:58 pm	Good and Bad Well the good news about this post is that my birthday is tom. and I am very excited. The bad news is that today was the worst day of my life. I just feel like curling up and crying. I feel so terrible of what I did and I am really sorry to the person I hurt. It just felt like you were moving farther and farther away from me the whole day and what happened after school just made me crazy. I let my bad side come out for 2 seconds and I went crazy. I was shaking and so nervous it would be the end. There wasn't any part of the body that wasn't shaking and I was really scared I would lose you for good because of what stupid thing I did. I hate to be angry and I never want it to happen again. Even though the bad side came out for two seconds it felt so horrible, then the good side kicked in and I felt so guilty like I screwed everything up for myself and I don't know what to do. All I can still do is say I am still SORRY with all my heart. Love, Your True Love Current Mood: guilty (Comment on this)
Saturday, December 9th, 2006
6:27 pm	OK I really have nothing to say I just want to show my emotion right now. The True Love Current Mood: CRYING (Comment on this)
Sunday, November 26th, 2006
3:14 pm	LOVE Everything I try never works. I feel I will not be together with this girl because she doesnt love me enough and she loves someone else in her life. This will always happen to me in my life. Why can't I ever get the girl in the end and someone elses heart gets shattered? When someone has an answer u just tell me. Love, The True Love (7 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, December 17th, 2005
11:49 pm	YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i have finally gotten a live journal and im very happy about it (Comment on this)